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2009-06-02T18:03:00.001+08:00

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Love?

2009-04-16T14:19:00.001+08:00

When they met she was eighteen
Like a black rose blooming wild
And she already knew she was gonna die

"What's tomorrow without you?
This is our last goodbye"

She got weaker every day
As the autumn leaves flew by
Until one day, she told him, "This is when I die"

"What was summer like for you?"
She asked him with a smile
"What's tomorrow without you?"
He silently replied

She said,

"I will always be with you
I'm the anchor of your sorrow
There's no end to what I'll do
Cause I love you, I love you to death"

But the sorrow went too deep
The mountain fell too steep
And the wounds would never heal
Cause the pain of the loss was more than he could feel

He said,

"I will always be with you
By the anchor of my sorrow
All I know, or ever knew,
Is I love you, I love you to death"

"What's tomorrow without you?
Is this our last goodbye?"

"I will always be with you
I'm the anchor of your sorrow
There's no end to what I'll do
Cause I love you"

Abandoned

2009-04-16T14:01:00.000+08:00

Once my life was
plain and clear
I recall
Once my ignorance was bliss
Nightfall came
Like a serpent's kiss
To my troubled mind

Why, oh why my God
Have you abandoned me
In my sobriety
Behind the old facade
I'm your bewildered child
So take me cross the river wide

Binding promises were made
On my soul
Grand illusions lead astray
Ice cold winds swept
my heart away
Bring me back to you

I remember a song
Like in a dream
Where September was long
And winter unreal

Why, oh why my God above
Have you abandoned me
In my sobriety
Behind the old facade
I'm your bewildered child
So take me cross the river wide

Dont you cry....

2009-04-16T13:54:00.003+08:00

Little by little
I've come to this point
on my own I've been searching my way
I lost you so early
the days went so fast
you don't know how I prayed every day

A song to remember
a song to forget
you'll never know how I tried
to make you proud
and to honor your name but
you never told me goodbye

Now that your are gone
casting shadows from the past
you and all the memories will last

Don't you cry
or suffer over me
I will be waiting for you
don't you cry
angels never fade away
I'll be watching over you
see you through

Now I'm a man and
I'm feeling you still
could it be you were there all along
a time to surrender
a time to forgive
with solace I give you this song

Now that you are gone
casting shadows from the past
in my dreams I hear your voice at last

I can see you tonight
in the pale winter light
father and son again
lover and lover
the bond of blood will never end

Eternity

2009-04-16T13:07:00.001+08:00

There's a pain within
that I can't define
there's an empty space
where your love used to shine
from the night we met
till the day you died
do you think I wished
do you still believe I tried
all too soon we were divided
and life had just begun

Will you revive
from the chaos in my mind
where we still are bound together
will you be there
waiting by the gates of dawn
when I close my eyes forever

I belong to you
you belong to me
it's the way things are
always meant to be

Like the morning star
and the rising sun

You convey my life
and forgive me what I've done

All too soon we were divided
in darkness and light

Save me
reverse how I'm thinking of you
every breath I take
brings me closer
closer to forever, to you
I'm waiting for the day that I'm gone

2009-01-21T22:09:00.000+08:00

红颜独憔悴，莫笑桃花劫
一腔春水只为你搁浅
把酒唱离别，追忆鸳鸯弦
用生命换永远住你心田
潮起潮落，月缺月又圆
沧海桑田，春去春又归
缘起缘灭，轮回落凡间
天上人间醉无眠
情思如梦，愁断白头
花开花落，望穿多少个秋
千年等候，只为破茧重逢
一生的痛只愿你为我读懂。

无题

2009-01-21T18:53:00.005+08:00

今天没什么特别的，但在这不特别的一天确有万千种情绪。
一天的开始，起步于成千上万的科学理论，反反复复。台上的教授口沫横飞，我们也只好照单全收。四点，时间到了。是时候了。。。。去了KLCC。原本是和朋友约好的但他们临时放飞机，只好自个儿去了。到了还真不知道要干什么。。。。兜了几圈，无聊！就决定回家了。没心情。走着走着，看见了它！STARBUCKS!!!好吧，既然没事做就喝几杯吧！点了MOCHA和四片起司蛋糕后就慢慢吃了。忧郁症又发作了。胡思乱想了一通。但从中领悟了很多东西。
1. 我。。原来还是以前的我。从来都不曾让人笑过。只因我根本就是个很闷的人。话不多，没话题。不能疯疯癫癫的让身边的人拥有难忘的一天。原来这就是人人都不想和我出的原因。第一次感觉做人很失败！
2. 我。。原来一点都不坚强，也希望会有人陪我。以往都是假想有人陪我，自己骗自己。这样还算不错。但毕竟只是想象的人物而已。罢了！都过了这么久也该习惯了。
3. 心里很不舒服。没原因，就不爽而已。是成年累月累积下来，压抑心情的后果吗？可能吧。想爆发却不能如愿。就再叫东西吃了。
回家！天公不作美，下雨了~独自在雨中散步，还真是别有一番风味。绵绵细雨，衬托出心中的心境。到家了就冲凉。畏缩在四面墙的角落一处，让水冲打在身上，水珠滴滴留下，忍不住流泪了。所谓何事。。。。。哎！就是忍不住啊！又再沉思了片刻，虽然一丝累的感觉都没有，但心情却是低落到谷底。睡了一会儿，就继续冲凉。上msn，果然还是和往常一样，没人找。Lala没在msn，想找她聊天但又玩失踪。铭又出去。老弟又很忙。另一个我，我开始感觉你要回来了。来陪我吧。哎，~明天。。。。应该会比较好吧。

Want to fly already!

2008-10-27T23:18:00.002+08:00

3 more weeks to go. Time does flies very fast. And time has also weaken a lot of stuff. I've found that my English standard has fallen to the extend that even the dogs can understand. Haha. How long have I not written English essay ? Very long. My vocabulary has really shattered to all pieces. I guess it is time for me to place them to the correct orientation now. I'd not want to bide my goodbye to them.
Anyway , back to topic! In another three weeks time , I will step my foot again , continuing my next journey back to Kuching. For almost 2 months , I'll be in Kuching. What will I do? Certainly I have no idea yet. I'm not a good planner , as I always tend to slide away from what I've planned. So , follow the heart then.
But how am I going to walk past these 3 weeks? It isnt a simple 3 weeks. Final exam is coming. Must pluck all the mood off and concentrate on studying , but whether does it work or not is another matter. Anyway , wish me luck then.
I'm very sure for that last few days I will have an enjoyable days here. 15 Nov will be the last day of the test. After that , I will be going to ONE UTAMA to shop. Ya , wandering around. Haha. Then , 16 Nov , as promised , will go to Sunway to meet Joyce. Activities , unkown yet , but I'm sure to be her Mariah - carrying lots and lots of shopping BAGGAGES. Not plastics bags though. Haha. 16 Nov , my departure.

Toast for the Day

2008-10-19T10:58:00.004+08:00

I know today is 19 October , but then I was too exhausted to post new thread yesterday.

18 October 2008 , windy. Saturday , a day where most people can relax their butt off. Having some delicious chocolate , for heaven's sake , so delirious!
Today , we are having our biology replacement class. Well , Ms Chong is not going to have any lecture today. So what's the point to go to college on SAT? Well , just for the movie - Penguin. Haha , sounds silly? It will if I tell you it's a documentory. But for me , it's quite interesting , and it ended really interesting. However , that morning , I really want to sleep a little bit longer than usual. But then , I couldn't. As usual , Yen has vanished herself into the thick cloud of blissfulness in her cousin's house. So only us , the three musketeers are attending. Guess what! There are so few of our coursemates attended. About less than 40 , judging by a glance through the DK. The movies lasted for about an hour and twenty minutes.
After the movie , we headed for the public speaking workshop. My god , SPUS students are automatically signed in for the competition! Such a sudden! Well , might as well just having fun then. We didnt attend the ice breaking session because we were late due to the bio replacement class. So we waited outside of the room for the next session to come. And time flied , we entered the room through the back door. Now , I realise we're having so much advantages. The organiser actually took a great care to us. She asked us to move to the front , and very front . ( That time we sat at the very last). Very sorry because blocked a few of other participants. Haha. The talk was interesting and a memorable one. Nothing much to talk about here. Haha
After having FREE lunch , another talk was given by Ms Lin Meiyi who won in the public competition held in London. She's really good and a nice person. She shared her experiences with us and guided us how to write a good script. Following up , it's the competition time! I chose the topic " How to make lots of money". Within 5 minutes , I simply scribble whatever I can think of then headed for the speech giving. The so called impromptu speech. I thought I've screwed up because somehow I was being too nervous. And the judges looked so stern and fierce. In the end , unexpectedly , I passed the qualifying round. Really a shock. Next round , with theme " the root of all evil". I guess I need more time now , coping with coming up soon test and this public speaking stuff .....Really a lot to do.

Latest Experience~

2008-09-20T16:44:00.003+08:00

What a life living in Kuala Lumpur. It's totally different from Kuching , for sure. A multiferous type of completely different personalities compared to Kuching'ians. Add on it , the style of KL'ians is infectious. It spreads little by little and engulfs one's soul without even realising it. Yes it's true. For example , individualistic and unsocialisable. In Kuching , even a stranger can be better comminucate and socialise with one another but in KL , none will care about your existence. Take my housemates as example. They locked themself in the room , once in a blue moon they appear only to get some drinks or food. Done with their business , they return to their nest. This is bad! Totally bad thing! No doubt human thesedays rely a lot towards technology where internet is so conveniet or even mobile phone. One has missed the time in which we have face-to-face chit-chatting which is more realistic. Comminication by all means starts from face-to-face confrontation and then slowly prejudices and misunderstandings can be avoided , not till the extend of totally eliminated. Well , human has their rights to choose what is best for themselves and I have no rights to interfere with their own decisions thus they're free to do so but just that , less and less faith will be cultivated and the stranger level starts to spark.

Laziness

2008-09-01T15:02:00.002+08:00

Hmm..I found that I'm lazy to update my life here for June , July and August. So , I think I will just scribble the present to future and not the past. Let bygones be bygones. Haha. So , very sorry because no more grandmother old stories for the past 3 months. Well , Malaysia's 51st Independence Day has just passed a few hours ago. I admit I'm not that patrotic to go to count down. I merely sat at home , browsing webs , listening to music and that's it. At least I know it's 51st Independance Day wah! Some might not even know it. Hehe.
Today , practically should be doing my Pure Mathematics Tutorial , but somehow there's no attraction to me. Haha. Holidays-ing. And I found a quite nice website. http://meetoto.goplayplay.com/alpha.html
Yes , a web for karaoke-ing. You will be able to listen to people singing there and you can also take part in it. Hold on , if you sing pathetically , please expect a whole bunches of shit will be thrown to you. Haha. Yesterday my friend and I were practically playing in this web. Yah , we were singing in it. Haha. Guess what? Our mikes are not in good conditions and this worsen the situation. Haha. Well , for fun's sake , just go and join la. No one know who are you. Just have fun singing and making noises. Haha. They cant force you down the stage. It's some sort of online game. Trust me , it's fun to throw shit at people. And! It's good to hear some angelica vocal there. So , why dont try youself there? Take part in the singing room instead of singing in the bathroom where there isnt anyone to appreciate you. Perhaps the microscopic bacteria there will do so. Haha. If you're lucky , maybe you will stumble upon me. More lucky , maybe I am the one singing on stage. Haha.

May...the month of kinship~

2008-08-30T01:50:00.003+08:00

1 May - End of May
Time travels very fast. Reminisce back , I had wasted an entirely half of the year contributing nothing to the community but significantly a great deal to my own good-enjoying the time I had to the fullest. And then , it is time. To go , to continue my life journey. To ascend myself to a higher step. Looking back , I have traversed for almost 18 years. Following the whisper of my heart , bringing myself to keep on walking along this road , misty conditions does not success in holding me back. I have carved my own road on my journey , and now , it is another new work. An entirely sophisticated task has thrown to me. Which way to go ? I've no idea. What to do next? And what I can do after it? Again , I dont know!
"You have no target in your life?" Someone asked me.
Deep thought of it, yap , there is..no...there ARE. However , it is not the subject for me to drag on here. After research after research , I've finally come to a conclusion - it's again another life bet. It's either I win this time or lost everything. I got to take the risk. Scholarships rejected me one by one , and I've known this for sure , what am I compare to others? I'm just one in a zillion. One tiny sub-ion compared to the universe. Even if I got the chance to grab a scholarship , I might reject them as well if it requires me to be bonded to them. Haha , am I arrogant? Or too stupid to do so? You may think so. But I have my different way of thinking , different perspective and different vision for my life. So , I've applied to TARCollege and now I'm there. Why ? Cheap lo. But not in the meaning of "cheap" , it's synonimous to inexpensive or rather affordable. Haha.
Towards the end of the month , it is the time for me to depart to Kuala Lumpur. Gosh , though it's not my first time flying to other places , I experience a plethora of emotions. A lot of things prepared and then the next day , it's going to be a long day.
In the airport , grandpa and grandma and and have come to bid me their farewell. I know I will meet them not long after this farewell because there will be a holidays during the coming June. Nothing happens until the time the plane has departed from the airport. Uphigh in the sky , I scan through the lower ground. Having my eyes set on Kuching's landscape. My last view of it and trying to photograph them into my mind. "I gonna miss here soon." Uncontrollable , tears started to roll down. Yes , it's true! Haha. It's the place I grow up , meet people and where my family lies. Nonetheless , an inseparatable bond has formed deep within me , it's just that I didnt realise it till that time.
And finally the plane set down to the Heart of Malaysia- Kuala Lumpur. Upon arrival to the condominium , my first impression is , Oh no! Why? That's for you to think.Haha. The first day we were busy buying things such as the furniture. After that we were having a small walk in KL for the next few days until my friends arrived. Then everything went on as usual. Nothing much to talk about.
Then here it came the orientation. It wasnt as fun as I thought.Listening to a lot of speeches and then the next day was the ice-breaking activites. Well , to be honest , I felt I should run away in midst of it. Haha.
Follows up , class begins. My lecturers are all nice. Just notice that my mind has really rusted totally. It's time to undergo studian movement again. Haha

Blowing off the Dust!

2008-08-30T01:35:00.003+08:00

I've come so far and now , it is the time to scribble a few things to be remembered. Due to suffocating boredom , I turn back to my blog and am thinking to update it. Let me see , we have a lot of dust and spider web here. No worries , bi bi di ba bi di boo~~~~~ Perfectly done!

Okay , enough of gibberish. Now , the real thing. Keep you people update of my typical life as a student. Omigowd , last post was during March.
LATEST UPDATE!
Name : Lord Lexirphiw de Kui Cheng *duh , name will not change of course*
Age : 17 , ya..still 17 , mengapa? Birthday has not knocked on my door yet. Don't age me automatically la you guys.
Course : Cambridge A Levels - Biology , General Paper , Chemistry , Physics , Mathematics
Where? TARCollege. Then where I live? Hostel? No No No No....Wangsa Maju! So feel free to come visit me but I have to tell you beforehead , no comfortable sofa nor tv available. But there's tonnes of newspaper available here. No joke! Haha.
Well , I got a lot to say and it will be about.......a long essay then. Some of you might not like to read these long and tedious and mundane stories. But hey , this is my blog , I can do whatever I want. Haha. So , if it's jabbing at your eyes , just move your cursor to the top right corner , ya there , saw a X ? Click that. Ya...done....you're no longer trapped under words. Anyway , the update will be separated into a few section caegorized by months. I supposed.

My New Hope

2008-03-06T20:45:00.003+08:00

Recently , I really have no idea what am I supposed to blog. Everyday goes by with the same routine. The pendulum swings from one edge to the another without failing. No external force exists to stop its movement. The inertia goes on. However , today , and finally, I get inspired to write me myself a blog entry. What's it all about? Find out then!

From dream to dream , ambition to ambition , there are a plethora of choices which one can adopt. And I do have a dream of my own , and might be the influence from my zodiac - scorpio and the date of my birth and time , it is to said that I possess character of over ambitious , too over till I think it is impractical as well. So , one will always have more than one choice. And I , no doubt , will create myself another path for me to choose. Not because I lost faith in the original but to make sure I will have another route for myself if things get wrong.

I always think which job is suitable for me , a job that combines all my capabilities. And now , I've got the idea - Magazine Editor! Yes , producing magazines! Sounds funny right ? Haha. Why? What so special about this job? Well , first , it's challenging of course. Management , creativity , innovativity , public relationship and much more....... Yes , this job needs all these. What more to say , I love to write , though I dont think I can write ver very well like the others , but I just love to write! Why I would need to follow the current trend? To prevent me jobless in the future? Probably , but I will not want myself to regret whole life. Indulge into one things that one doesnt like to is far more terrible than death , I suppose!

What I want to do?

2008-02-22T15:09:00.002+08:00

These few days have really made me bored deep into my bones. It is now I realse how nice it is to go to school. How controversal it is! Anyway , since I have nothing to do , I might as well find SOMETHING to do. Let's see. Hm..I dont have a PS , nor PS2 , that also applies to PS3. So basically , no games. PSP? Yes...But I've played it for the past 2 months already. Online games? The same grinding games all over. Nothing much to inspire me. Then , no gaming. Well , what I am interested in doing now is writing , perhaps. I'm writing my script for the Sin Chew Daily's Literature Competition. For the World Bank Essay Competition , too bad , it requires too much facts that I admit I am NOT good in factual essay. Listening to music and also finding nice pieces to play lo. Currently into TVB'S theme. The Drive of Life is a superb piece! Anyway , might find somemore things to post. Probably will be on SPM result that day gua. Should got inspiration to write , may it be good or bad. For the 2007 Form 5-ians , cross your fingers , toes and whichever parts that you can cross and pray hard ....... As we desire , so mote it be.

Emotional Day

2008-02-20T21:35:00.003+08:00

At 7.37pm , I got lectured by my mom. Reason - Trying to take Art Subjects for A Level. In her opinion , and also father's opinion , Art Subjects are low class subjects and will not earn much respect when applying for scholarship. Alright , what's the big deal? It is just that I scared I wont be able to cope with and one day I might end up crazy. "But most people dont eh? Why you?" Okay , I am DIFFERENT from them. I dont have their scientific mind.Reprimanded me that I will regret next time. I tried to tell them if I fail all , how? But still nothing can change their mind.Alright , then I might as well follow what they tell me. All the dream of my own will screw up from this moment and replace with strings that hanging my limps and every nerves and muscles of my own. A puppet. A puppet that lives under YOUR shadow. Not a choice to choose , not a choice to speak but to follow the mastermind of the master. Now I just realise what Kwen ever said. What's the different of dieing earlier and later. The longer one lives , the more the suffering. So hope the death scynth will one day come before my and slash my soul into two. Or even go crazy , how innocent they are and have nothing to worry for. Or even being not so intelligent also seems to be good. 傻人有傻福~ Here presents a lyric for Moeny,Money,Money:
I work all night , I work all day
To pay the bills I have to pay , aint it sad!
And still there never seems to be
A single penny left for me , that's too bad.
In my dreams I have a plan
If I got me a wealthy man
I wouldnt have to work at all
I'd fool around and have a ball.
Money Money Money
Must be funny in the rich man's world
Money Money Money
Always sunny in the rich man's world.
All the things I could do
If I had a little money
It's a rich man's world
A man like that is hard to find
But I cant get him off my mind , aint it sad
And if he happens to be free
I bet he wouldnt fancy me , that's too bad.
So I must leave , I'll have to go
To Las Vegas or Monaco
And win a fortune in a game
My life will never be the same
Money Money Money
Must be funny in the rich man's world
Money Money Money
Always sunny in the rich man's world.
All the things I could do ,
If I had a little money , it's a ich man's world,
It's a rich man's world.

A Poem to Quench Thirst

2008-02-18T23:24:00.004+08:00

Recently being so busy. Si Anu asked,"What are you busy on? Even the ants are also busy to find food." The truth is , I do not know what am I busy on and that's why I am busy in trying to figure why I am busy. Haha. Valentine's Day just passed as usual. It's kind of funny that it should be 14 February according to the time zone of the origin right? Then Malaysia's time should be 15 Febraury. Haha.... Gibberishing on nonsense stuff again. Anyway , for the couples , everyday will be Valentine's Day , what makes that day so special? I do not know. So present the"LoNeLiNess" to all those are are still single. I accept tomatoes and potatoes throwing to me but NO water please...I already got plenty just by turning the water pipes.

Walking down this grey path of life,
I see meaningless smiles;
hear meaningless speeches,
Smell treachery , betrayal.......
I am , and will go on , alone......
Alone in this concrete room
which enveloped me within....
Sandwiched by thick moisturing smell of debres
With only the resounding silences to accompany me.
Echo bounches back here and forth...
Resonated the whole room
Into a tremendous din....
Yet , it is still my own moaning.

How could this be
That you're not here with me?
Not at all!
You never ever tell me your farewell,
Leaving me alone in your wake ,
Awaiting your presence.

Here I am alone in a world of mid winter,
Everyday I sit here and reminsce...
I questioned myself never-endingly:
What Have I done?
Why had everyone slipped away from me?

Over the time,
Darkness enveloped me inexorably,
No light , no friends , no care,
Just the tormenting and merciless , excruciating darkness.

Who shall accept my existence when I , myself
Cannot bear my own existence in this world?
What is the destiny or fate?
Born into this world,
What's awaiting me?
What's the purpose ?

The echo of the silence continued on deafeningly...
Oh how pain it is!
Not the pain of the flesh , nor the bleeding of the body
But the breaking of one's inner soul of the soul.

A choice was what I have decided,
For the world so hopeless and a void.
A hardened heart I brewed,
An emotionless mind I fostered,
An empty soul I traded,
All to deny the one called "Loneliness"
Alas , it had struck me deep and rooted in me,
Sealed in me , unable to be removed.
How I negotiated with It,
I know it would never leave....
Nothing could make it leave,
Lest the day comes when I will go to my ancestors' place.

灯

2008-02-18T22:30:00.002+08:00

点燃一盏生之灯盏
时光的倒流
让后悔的悲哀,
无怨的喜悦
流向生命的死之源头
飞鸟和鱼的爱情
不再是不能一起的悲哀
鸟儿欲火焚
身成了凤凰
鱼儿奋力一跃
出了龙门
化身为龙
谁说它们离开了世俗的视线就不是幸福的存在？
蛇褪掉的不是一层挣扎而是透明的灵魂
所以它成了邪恶的魔鬼
它选择丢弃灵魂来换取行尸走肉的生
天堂之蝉无期复无期的等待
毅然抛弃了心之天堂
然后又穿上了丑陋的外衣
而蝴蝶已经美丽
不再是当初和它一起爬行的毛毛虫
谁说到了天堂就是幸福？
所有生之终结只是回到
陌生的死之最初 .

点一盏老之灯盏
独剪西窗的烛芯
微弱的灯光
霎时明亮了许多岁月
在你的额角
镂刻了几道忧伤的波纹
风霜
在你乌黑的头发
漂染了白雪的颜色
忽然觉得亏欠了你许多
总想远离你的唠叨
你的期待与怀疑的目光
您总觉得孩子弱小经不起风霜与岁月的打击
我离你越是远
心总是和你在一起
想你不是岁月催老
而是你爱之大手紧紧的把我抓劳
和那从不放弃的坚持爱的力气
慢慢消耗的缘故
总是怨恨自己的无能为力
流下懦弱和亏欠的眼泪
我愿用我透明的心，
纯洁的灵魂，
和一丝残存的梦想
换你不老的容颜。
我们是您一只手的五根手指
虽然有间隔却又是不分离。

点一盏病之灯盏
燃尽血液中的忧郁
从此没有忧郁
忧郁的眼神眼神里
弥散的诗意的坚定
死神微笑的站立在我的床头
他要带去我透明的灵魂到达另一个空心的世界
死神在床头意味着必死
在床尾意味着残生
一如活着的地方
是浮华的世界
死去的地方
是清静的天堂
天堂是地狱之外的世界还是地狱是天堂之外的世界？

点起死之灯盏的时候
我知道就要结束
不愿醒来的梦
它是那样的易碎与醒
多想那个王子可以放慢到我身边的脚步
那个王子的吻迟迟的不落下
久久不愿睁开还有我多情的眼睛
然而灯已点亮
我愿意用300首云淡的诗
换取你一颗透明的心
谁愿意用一千首风清的诗换取我的死？
然后王子哭着归来
公主笑着睁开沉睡已久的眼眸 .

点一盏爱别离之灯
让别离的蜡烛
永远燃烧着不息的爱之灯火
一座孤坟埋藏着的
只是朽木，枯骨，
最终也只剩下黄土
有一缕青烟
就在你一眨眼的瞬间
也随风消散了
庆幸还有一棵年轻的松树
离坟只有数步之隔
这微小的距离
也会在流年似水中消弭松树就挺拔在坟的黄土上
就像别离的灯盏熄灭了只余下无止息的爱 .

点一盏怨憎会之灯
灯火就成了怨的黑夜
憎的白昼的分隔
洁白的蝴蝶
贪恋芳香暗涌的花朵
而花朵却是恶魔的化身
恶魔之花偷去了蝴蝶的心灵
它怨恨花朵美丽的诱惑
花朵憎恶蝴蝶无心的飞翔
从此它飘荡在天涯
不久便厌恶天涯的漂泊
无依飞回百花园里
不再是贪恋芬芳的蝶
因为它要找回那颗水晶的心 .

我就居住在那盏阿拉丁神灯里
虽然我也有千年的愿望
却不能自我实现
与我无关的商时风唐时雨来袭
我就酣睡在灯盏内
我千年的愿望
就是人们再无需索和要求
如此我就可以永远沉睡在千年不变的梦里
人们总是扰乱了我的心
我的梦
别人的美梦成真了
我的梦却支离破碎的醒着.

Friends....

2008-02-18T22:26:00.000+08:00

有时你很暖，暖得犹如母亲的体温浓缩着炙烤我冰冷的心的温度哪怕那冰冷的心碎了也无法弥补我的你的谢意有时你很轻犹如纷飞的雪花熔化着、浸透着哪怕那纷飞的舞者停止了生命也无法偿还我对你的歉意然而在泥土下有冻不碎的心扉有割不断的思念或许，最寒冷的夜里你能看到我的身影越走越远越走越淡

你在狂风之中嘶吼咆哮着对我的呼唤我的灵魂悄然降落在你的身后心情落寂的时候,一声轻轻的问候恰似一丝温情溢满心间，
永远让人感动。遇到困难四处无助时我帮你，淡淡的关怀缠绕身边。无论跋涉的脚步行与多远，想到在暗夜里，风雨中孤寂时，
始终有朋友为我点灯，撑伞，抚慰，总会有一种神奇的力量，
永远让人感动！真正的朋友无所谓远近和性别,是能与你风雨同舟同甘共苦的人；朋友会是让你在心底深处常常牵挂的人；朋友就是你能信任她,她也了解你的人；朋友是能够分享你的成功,你的喜悦而从未妒忌的人；朋友是能倾听烦恼并给予你帮助而不求任何回报的人；朋友也是让你由不得自己去深深依恋的人朋友是快乐时永远忘记的人；朋友是痛苦时第一个想找的人；朋友是打扰了不用说对不起的人。朋友是给了帮助不用说谢谢的人；朋友是你步步高升也不用改变称呼的人；朋友是扎根在你脑海中——想忘也忘却不了的人。
因为失去了将不会复得，以诚相见，心诚则灵；
以心相许，心灵相同让我们永远是朋友。朋友是永恒不变的
别让骄傲占有你，
因为骄傲会使你拒绝有益的忠告和友谊的帮助决不要陷于骄傲,
因为一骄傲，你们就拒绝别人的忠告和友谊的帮助；
因为一骄傲，你们就会丧失客观方面的准绳
富裕带来荣誉，富裕创造友谊金子使兄弟反目；，金子使家庭不和；
金子使友谊破裂；金子使国家内讧贫困会中断友谊友谊是个无垠的天地，它多么宽广啊
破坏水堤的是腐朽的树根，破坏友谊的是言而无信的人忠厚是友谊的桥梁，欺骗友谊的敌人虚伪的迎合是友谊的毒剂，诚恳的批评是友爱的厚礼卑鄙与狡诈的开始，就是在友谊的终结人和人之间，
最痛心的事莫过于在你认为理应获得善意和友谊的地方，
却遭受了烦扰和损害忠诚是爱情的桥梁，欺诈是友谊的敌人

但我不明白,為何你一次又一次地說我們是知心好友,卻又一次又一次地討厭我..每當我以為,我發覺,我懂得. .你與我的友情己到了盡頭的時候,你卻去補救它,可不是徒然的,,每一次我也心軟地相信你...每當我欣喜,我希望, 我快樂我們的友誼終於穩定了, 你卻開始用言語, 冷淡來摧毀我們辛苦建立的信任,也不是徒然的,,每一次我的心也破碎了...一次又一次,你到底要傷害我多少次才心息?你到底要弄碎我的心多少次才足夠?我實在茫然,原來朋友你對我的傷害比誰也深,比誰也狠...

THINK in Motion

2008-01-23T22:38:00.000+08:00

What's today topic? THINK IN MOTION ! What is it? Read on to find out then.

Recently most of the Form 5 Graduates are chit-chatting , gossiping , asking , telling , answering the same thing over and over again. Guess what is it ?

Ans : 1. Where are you going to study?

2. What are you going to study ?

3. What you want to be?

4. What scholarship is available?

............ Revolving around here.........

Honestly , I really have no idea what am I going to be. No doubt I have my dreams but whether to achieve them or not , it's still another problem. I have a lot of interests. And I like to expose to many things around me , that applies to knowledge as well. People always told me that I am good in many things so whatever I chose will not be a problem. For me , that IS the problem. I have no specialisation into certain field. I conclude that choosing a career is a hard time. Sometimes you plan to be this , but ended up going into another career.

Conclusion : I don't know what to study.

Science stream and art stream. Another problem for me. In Malaysia , people always have misconcept between these two streams. In their mind , science stream is for the clever and diligent students while the poor and weak will be in art stream. Actually both of them are of equal standard. However , I do admit that science subjects will be tougher than art's. Having studied for 2 years in science stream , the fame of "science student" has really made me proud of myself. However, to think that taking science subjects for my A Level , it will be terrible. Why ? Because I only love Biology. For Physics and Chemistry , I only love to know them and not study them. So , salute to those who take science subjects in their further studies. Now , thinking that I am going to venture into art stream , the pressure of science is still there. Friends around me told me that they wanted to study chemical engineering , biotechnology (which I thought I might take it) , biomedical science , pharmacy , hydraulic engineering , aerospace engineering....yada yada.... The title itself already overpowers the art stream's. Ya I know , I'm having the pre-conception like the misconcep. Imagining that they're having higher pay is another problem. Some told me , "Look at the singers or actors , most are not from science stream but yet they can earn more than the science students who struggle all their lives in development and discovery." What does this prove ? Art is also comparable to science? Well , I dont know. As that is the singers or actors' business. They earn more because they got their own assets- vocal and of course , appearance and bodyshape. The science students might as well undergo operation to have an attractive appearance and lipsync to synthetic vocal. Ya....sounds nice but then without them , mankind will not develop anymore.

Where to study? Have you done any research on that college? Have you collected opinions about the college from others? Compare this and that will end up having youself sick. Headache. Best way ? Dont study and go looking for job ? CRAZY! Calculate how much will you earn a month then. Trying to debate with me that working in Kenny Rogers will earn you RM3.50 per hour and if you work for 11 hours a day , a month you can earn RM1155 as your basic income not including EPF , Bonus , Commission and such ? Claiming that the pay is almost the same as a fresh engineer? You might be right for some points but I totally disagree. How are you going to have your own free time? An enginner need not work 11 hours a day to get that pay. And he or she might still got plenty of time to spend for leisure. And his/her pay will not always be that low. As time passes , the pay increases. Topped up that he/she is in the professional bodies , the basic income alone will surpass yours at least by 2 times. And you cant possibly work 24 hours a day , it is not 7-11. Okay okay , I know you're fuming. And shoot me back that you're happy with your job. Ya , I know but I am just telling you that time wise + salary wise = good job.

You wont know until the last , teaching is another perfect job as well. Be a well known teacher , then open a tuition centre , you earn RM60 from each student. Supposing you have 50 students in a class . You earn RM3600. And that is just for 1 session. By renting rooms to other teachers and have more session , utilities and RM500K for the shop will be earned back really fast.

Review on Year 2007

2008-01-22T21:52:00.000+08:00

Reminiscing back to year 2007. Witnessing what had I done in this year.

January
Obviously , school reopened. First day of school , I started to wear the froggish vest and tie. My friends , Siang Leng who appeared to be a prefect , also dressed neatly with his black vest and stylist tie - red tie with golden lining topped up with our school's logo. That year , we were using the same classroom as in year 2006. I still ended up in my old seat. No change. Ya-lar~ Good Feng Shui mah~ Ops....Malaysia slang again.
Move on to the teachers. Mostly they stayed the same. Only a few changes. Like , Chemistry , Additional Math and Moral teacher (constantly changing , I wonder is there any curse on this post).
Could not believe that they started to teach at the very first day. What can I expect? SPM Year.
Apparently nothing much happen in January. Only thing that I remember clearly is the time I get scolded by Mdm Lee Ee Ling,teacher-in-charge of the Monitorial Board. She blamed me for not going to school early to perform my duty as the President of Monitorial Board. However , my duty was not to call the students to go to the hall but the AJK. Well , perhaps she was not in good mood that day.

February
Chinese New Year time! Busy doing this and that. Running here and there for Monitors' business. Class presentation on global warming for EST. My group did a lot of research from different sources so as to outstanding the other groups. It blossomed in the end and I have my gratitude to my members-Albert , Francis CHONG and not WEE , Siang Leng and of course , applause to myself. >.<>

March
Exam period lasted for 1 week. Well managed and quite okay. Followed up , school HOLIDAYS! Duh , playing online game. Ya I know it's SPM and I've vowed not to play any but...hey , cant I have some time to relax ?

April
Nothing much special. April's Fool as well. Remembered that English Club selling "Stupid Box". Well , it is really stupid and not worth to buy one. Started to work up for the school magazine's advertisement column. Going here and there to find sponsors. Sending email after email and letters after letters to the so called big and famous companies. Starting to worried because no one has replied yet until almost the end of the month. So happy for the achievement. I also ke po-ing into other sections' business. For instance , the Editorial's job. Interferring them on the front cover design and texture. However , the teacher didnt want to be the special one. So , end of story.

May
Semester 1 examination was held officially. As usual , last minute revision. Again , managed. Mother's Day. Cant remember what I did. The rest is the same. Schooling and going for tuition.

June
Had a drama for my Sejarah. But still , not as smooth as what I had in mind. However , we still managed to grap Pn. Isking's interest. Since I have nothing much for June , I will just elaborate on the drama. Solely completed the script. And had a very very last minute rehearsal. Just on that day early in the morning we had our rehearsal. It was still very fun though. Especially the part at which Francis was about to declare war..."PERANG~PERANG~" Due to last minute work , we did not have the time to rehearse. Everyone was running blindly in all directions. No one knew who did he suppose to attact. My part was on the JWW Birch. It was so funny. We were supposed to use only paper-made props. Well , I've said , it's last minute! Hereby , I take this opportunity to thanks my members again - Albert , Francis , Siang Leng and Wan Ning for going through this with me.

July

Another drama for English. Jungle of Hope~Again , there was a group discussion on the script , costume and the actors/actresses. Having a serious fight with Albert because of the actor's part. Using this opportunity , I'd like to ask for forgiveness. A lot of effort was made to perfectionise the drama including shopping in Indian Street to buy materials for our costume. Chose a few nice fabrics and stupid instrument for my part - BOMOH. Ye , so funny! Smashed my bottle during the presentation. HEART ATTACKED! One of my precious collection just smashed into tiny pieces. Very happy and enjoy it very much. Thanks to Mdm Teo for letting us the chance to play. Madelyn kept changing her costume. Grapped others fabric and wrapped herself here and there. Again , thanks to my members - Albert , Francis , Madelyn , Siang Leng and Wan Ning.

August
A very busy month. Why? Because of the MERDEKA thing! For Monitorial Board , we organized an annual competition which is "Kelas Paling Patriotik". Last year we got the first. And this year , we wouldnt let anyone to have the chance as well. Decorated here and there. Ya , we are the first again. Pn Chong Lee San , our Moral teacher , threw us a project- Traditional costume design. We were supposed to combine as many races' traditional outfits into one as we can. Again , we went to Indian Street to search for nice fabrics and accessories. With the help of my friend - Joyce , we got a perfect design. Siang Leng contributed his Barbie's Doll as our model. Though our teacher just want us to draw out the pattern , but I insisted in doing a real one instead. Unbelievable , we made it. And it is a success. We were praised by Pn Chong and awarded bonus marks for our markah sahsiah. Thanks again to Albert , Francis , Siang Leng and Wan Ning.

September
Mdm Daisy , our EST teacher , gave us another project-combining two animals into one. We had no inspiration and we created a funny but cute animal. We combined the whale with eagle. The whale can fly. Sincerely , we were fooling around for this project. Aother group did a very interesting combination. They combined frog and cow that they named it as frog-moo. The cow has the tongue of the frog and the skin of the frog but maintain the splashes of black ink of the cow. It has the tail of the cow and also the mammary glands. I dare to tell you , it is really interesting. The cow-moo will swing its tail to swap the mosquitoes to the front and the long tongue of it enables it to "catch" the mosquitoes. The frog-moo also produces milk. However , you dare to drink? Milk which comes from the digestion of mosquitoes? Forgot to mention it's legs. It has the legs of the frog. Therefore , frog-moo hops. Haha.
End of the month we were really busy preparing for our trial exam. No more time to fool around.

October
Our trial SPM period. Browsed many useful webs to gain tips and other States' trial papers as reference. Everyone was in study mood. After the test , the time was near-SPM. Many of us did not attend to school regularly. Going to school just to get our test papers. Ya , most people vanished into the thin air without any symptom.Oh ya. And that month , it was our first time experiencing scholarship interview. We got the scholarship. However it is still too expensive as we do not get full scholarship.We were all very nervous and had no idea how fluent our english are. We collected and compiled our certificates and our forecast result to be certified by the school. The interview was not as tensed and serious as what I had in my mind. I gained 60% scholarship but the remaining 40% is still an astronomical value to me. So , bye bye to Brittin College in United Kingdom. So......study and study and study....

November-December
Graduation Day. No one cried. Finally , it came. It was time for us ...to WAR~ Equipped with our best swords , lances , staffs , wands , best quality armors , robes , hats. To fight till our last blood. For the future and not the queen. First day , the day was bright. A bit shocked for what had come out in the papers. Crossed fingers and hope we success. In midst , after Biology papers , we had our dinner for the magazine's committee. Holy God , the food was too salty , sweet , spicy , tasteless. No offence. Till the very last day , Chinese paper. A lot apparently had forgotten to bring their IC. And yes ......SPM is over! But waiting for the result is another torturing period. Played online game with my friends meanwhile checking in web for more scholarships and colleges stuff.

Conclusion : WOW...I didnt expect to have such short review. Hehe. I think there are more activities but I've forgotten. Anyway , I'm feeling nostalgic. Missing school days. Missing the fun to see friends around everyday and talking , gossiping , playing and much more.Missing the teachers especially lectures and nervousness feeling from Mdm Angie. Missing the time I stand by the road side to wait for my parents to fetch me back. Missing my school. The corridors , the football field. Every corners that have my footprints on them......they will all seal in my memory. Farewell , what a small word which implies a very deep meaning. Salute to 4 Alpha / 5 Alpha of year 2006/2007 ! May all of us have the bright future and everlasting friendship. * As we desire , so mote it be* :p

Reborn of the Phoenix

2008-01-22T20:10:00.000+08:00

(I)
Having my previous "Phoenix" burned into ashes and now she is REBORN. Since the beginning of Secondary Five , I had indulged myself in a plethora of busy works. Gosh , those works really made me to have less time in blogging. And now , the time has come. So keep in touch !

Ashes to ashes,Spirits to spirits ,
From the holy fire embarks into luminous flames,
For the darkest night time where not even a star shines,
Fear no more for the thirst of darkness,
Shine along with the phoenix's glows,
Let's us shine towards every corner of darkness.

(II)
Since so many of my friends around me start to blog , irresistantly , the blogging trend is just like an infectious disease which has penetrated my first defence -the skin , followed up to the second and third but yet have not been "denatured". It strongly altered my genes and carved deeply into my soul. Inseperatable. Any cure? It's still under construction ! Perhaps one day you might pop up and tell me that you've found a cure.