今天没什么特别的，但在这不特别的一天确有万千种情绪。
一天的开始，起步于成千上万的科学理论，反反复复。台上的教授口沫横飞，我们也只好照单全收。四点，时间到了。是时候了。。。。去了KLCC。原本是和朋友约好的但他们临时放飞机，只好自个儿去了。到了还真不知道要干什么。。。。兜了几圈，无聊！就决定回家了。没心情。走着走着，看见了它！STARBUCKS!!!好吧，既然没事做就喝几杯吧！点了MOCHA和四片起司蛋糕后就慢慢吃了。忧郁症又发作了。胡思乱想了一通。但从中领悟了很多东西。
1. 我。。原来还是以前的我。从来都不曾让人笑过。只因我根本就是个很闷的人。话不多，没话题。不能疯疯癫癫的让身边的人拥有难忘的一天。原来这就是人人都不想和我出的原因。第一次感觉做人很失败！
2. 我。。原来一点都不坚强，也希望会有人陪我。以往都是假想有人陪我，自己骗自己。这样还算不错。但毕竟只是想象的人物而已。罢了！都过了这么久也该习惯了。
3. 心里很不舒服。没原因，就不爽而已。是成年累月累积下来，压抑心情的后果吗？可能吧。想爆发却不能如愿。就再叫东西吃了。
回家！天公不作美，下雨了~独自在雨中散步，还真是别有一番风味。绵绵细雨，衬托出心中的心境。到家了就冲凉。畏缩在四面墙的角落一处，让水冲打在身上，水珠滴滴留下，忍不住流泪了。所谓何事。。。。。哎！就是忍不住啊！又再沉思了片刻，虽然一丝累的感觉都没有，但心情却是低落到谷底。睡了一会儿，就继续冲凉。上msn，果然还是和往常一样，没人找。Lala没在msn，想找她聊天但又玩失踪。铭又出去。老弟又很忙。另一个我，我开始感觉你要回来了。来陪我吧。哎，~明天。。。。应该会比较好吧。
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Monday, October 27, 2008
Want to fly already!
3 more weeks to go. Time does flies very fast. And time has also weaken a lot of stuff. I've found that my English standard has fallen to the extend that even the dogs can understand. Haha. How long have I not written English essay ? Very long. My vocabulary has really shattered to all pieces. I guess it is time for me to place them to the correct orientation now. I'd not want to bide my goodbye to them.
Anyway , back to topic! In another three weeks time , I will step my foot again , continuing my next journey back to Kuching. For almost 2 months , I'll be in Kuching. What will I do? Certainly I have no idea yet. I'm not a good planner , as I always tend to slide away from what I've planned. So , follow the heart then.
But how am I going to walk past these 3 weeks? It isnt a simple 3 weeks. Final exam is coming. Must pluck all the mood off and concentrate on studying , but whether does it work or not is another matter. Anyway , wish me luck then.
I'm very sure for that last few days I will have an enjoyable days here. 15 Nov will be the last day of the test. After that , I will be going to ONE UTAMA to shop. Ya , wandering around. Haha. Then , 16 Nov , as promised , will go to Sunway to meet Joyce. Activities , unkown yet , but I'm sure to be her Mariah - carrying lots and lots of shopping BAGGAGES. Not plastics bags though. Haha. 16 Nov , my departure.
Anyway , back to topic! In another three weeks time , I will step my foot again , continuing my next journey back to Kuching. For almost 2 months , I'll be in Kuching. What will I do? Certainly I have no idea yet. I'm not a good planner , as I always tend to slide away from what I've planned. So , follow the heart then.
But how am I going to walk past these 3 weeks? It isnt a simple 3 weeks. Final exam is coming. Must pluck all the mood off and concentrate on studying , but whether does it work or not is another matter. Anyway , wish me luck then.
I'm very sure for that last few days I will have an enjoyable days here. 15 Nov will be the last day of the test. After that , I will be going to ONE UTAMA to shop. Ya , wandering around. Haha. Then , 16 Nov , as promised , will go to Sunway to meet Joyce. Activities , unkown yet , but I'm sure to be her Mariah - carrying lots and lots of shopping BAGGAGES. Not plastics bags though. Haha. 16 Nov , my departure.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Toast for the Day
I know today is 19 October , but then I was too exhausted to post new thread yesterday.
18 October 2008 , windy. Saturday , a day where most people can relax their butt off. Having some delicious chocolate , for heaven's sake , so delirious!
Today , we are having our biology replacement class. Well , Ms Chong is not going to have any lecture today. So what's the point to go to college on SAT? Well , just for the movie - Penguin. Haha , sounds silly? It will if I tell you it's a documentory. But for me , it's quite interesting , and it ended really interesting. However , that morning , I really want to sleep a little bit longer than usual. But then , I couldn't. As usual , Yen has vanished herself into the thick cloud of blissfulness in her cousin's house. So only us , the three musketeers are attending. Guess what! There are so few of our coursemates attended. About less than 40 , judging by a glance through the DK. The movies lasted for about an hour and twenty minutes.
After the movie , we headed for the public speaking workshop. My god , SPUS students are automatically signed in for the competition! Such a sudden! Well , might as well just having fun then. We didnt attend the ice breaking session because we were late due to the bio replacement class. So we waited outside of the room for the next session to come. And time flied , we entered the room through the back door. Now , I realise we're having so much advantages. The organiser actually took a great care to us. She asked us to move to the front , and very front . ( That time we sat at the very last). Very sorry because blocked a few of other participants. Haha. The talk was interesting and a memorable one. Nothing much to talk about here. Haha
After having FREE lunch , another talk was given by Ms Lin Meiyi who won in the public competition held in London. She's really good and a nice person. She shared her experiences with us and guided us how to write a good script. Following up , it's the competition time! I chose the topic " How to make lots of money". Within 5 minutes , I simply scribble whatever I can think of then headed for the speech giving. The so called impromptu speech. I thought I've screwed up because somehow I was being too nervous. And the judges looked so stern and fierce. In the end , unexpectedly , I passed the qualifying round. Really a shock. Next round , with theme " the root of all evil". I guess I need more time now , coping with coming up soon test and this public speaking stuff .....Really a lot to do.
18 October 2008 , windy. Saturday , a day where most people can relax their butt off. Having some delicious chocolate , for heaven's sake , so delirious!
Today , we are having our biology replacement class. Well , Ms Chong is not going to have any lecture today. So what's the point to go to college on SAT? Well , just for the movie - Penguin. Haha , sounds silly? It will if I tell you it's a documentory. But for me , it's quite interesting , and it ended really interesting. However , that morning , I really want to sleep a little bit longer than usual. But then , I couldn't. As usual , Yen has vanished herself into the thick cloud of blissfulness in her cousin's house. So only us , the three musketeers are attending. Guess what! There are so few of our coursemates attended. About less than 40 , judging by a glance through the DK. The movies lasted for about an hour and twenty minutes.
After the movie , we headed for the public speaking workshop. My god , SPUS students are automatically signed in for the competition! Such a sudden! Well , might as well just having fun then. We didnt attend the ice breaking session because we were late due to the bio replacement class. So we waited outside of the room for the next session to come. And time flied , we entered the room through the back door. Now , I realise we're having so much advantages. The organiser actually took a great care to us. She asked us to move to the front , and very front . ( That time we sat at the very last). Very sorry because blocked a few of other participants. Haha. The talk was interesting and a memorable one. Nothing much to talk about here. Haha
After having FREE lunch , another talk was given by Ms Lin Meiyi who won in the public competition held in London. She's really good and a nice person. She shared her experiences with us and guided us how to write a good script. Following up , it's the competition time! I chose the topic " How to make lots of money". Within 5 minutes , I simply scribble whatever I can think of then headed for the speech giving. The so called impromptu speech. I thought I've screwed up because somehow I was being too nervous. And the judges looked so stern and fierce. In the end , unexpectedly , I passed the qualifying round. Really a shock. Next round , with theme " the root of all evil". I guess I need more time now , coping with coming up soon test and this public speaking stuff .....Really a lot to do.
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Latest Experience~
What a life living in Kuala Lumpur. It's totally different from Kuching , for sure. A multiferous type of completely different personalities compared to Kuching'ians. Add on it , the style of KL'ians is infectious. It spreads little by little and engulfs one's soul without even realising it. Yes it's true. For example , individualistic and unsocialisable. In Kuching , even a stranger can be better comminucate and socialise with one another but in KL , none will care about your existence. Take my housemates as example. They locked themself in the room , once in a blue moon they appear only to get some drinks or food. Done with their business , they return to their nest. This is bad! Totally bad thing! No doubt human thesedays rely a lot towards technology where internet is so conveniet or even mobile phone. One has missed the time in which we have face-to-face chit-chatting which is more realistic. Comminication by all means starts from face-to-face confrontation and then slowly prejudices and misunderstandings can be avoided , not till the extend of totally eliminated. Well , human has their rights to choose what is best for themselves and I have no rights to interfere with their own decisions thus they're free to do so but just that , less and less faith will be cultivated and the stranger level starts to spark.
Monday, September 1, 2008
Laziness
Hmm..I found that I'm lazy to update my life here for June , July and August. So , I think I will just scribble the present to future and not the past. Let bygones be bygones. Haha. So , very sorry because no more grandmother old stories for the past 3 months. Well , Malaysia's 51st Independence Day has just passed a few hours ago. I admit I'm not that patrotic to go to count down. I merely sat at home , browsing webs , listening to music and that's it. At least I know it's 51st Independance Day wah! Some might not even know it. Hehe.
Today , practically should be doing my Pure Mathematics Tutorial , but somehow there's no attraction to me. Haha. Holidays-ing. And I found a quite nice website. http://meetoto.goplayplay.com/alpha.html
Yes , a web for karaoke-ing. You will be able to listen to people singing there and you can also take part in it. Hold on , if you sing pathetically , please expect a whole bunches of shit will be thrown to you. Haha. Yesterday my friend and I were practically playing in this web. Yah , we were singing in it. Haha. Guess what? Our mikes are not in good conditions and this worsen the situation. Haha. Well , for fun's sake , just go and join la. No one know who are you. Just have fun singing and making noises. Haha. They cant force you down the stage. It's some sort of online game. Trust me , it's fun to throw shit at people. And! It's good to hear some angelica vocal there. So , why dont try youself there? Take part in the singing room instead of singing in the bathroom where there isnt anyone to appreciate you. Perhaps the microscopic bacteria there will do so. Haha. If you're lucky , maybe you will stumble upon me. More lucky , maybe I am the one singing on stage. Haha.
Today , practically should be doing my Pure Mathematics Tutorial , but somehow there's no attraction to me. Haha. Holidays-ing. And I found a quite nice website. http://meetoto.goplayplay.com/alpha.html
Yes , a web for karaoke-ing. You will be able to listen to people singing there and you can also take part in it. Hold on , if you sing pathetically , please expect a whole bunches of shit will be thrown to you. Haha. Yesterday my friend and I were practically playing in this web. Yah , we were singing in it. Haha. Guess what? Our mikes are not in good conditions and this worsen the situation. Haha. Well , for fun's sake , just go and join la. No one know who are you. Just have fun singing and making noises. Haha. They cant force you down the stage. It's some sort of online game. Trust me , it's fun to throw shit at people. And! It's good to hear some angelica vocal there. So , why dont try youself there? Take part in the singing room instead of singing in the bathroom where there isnt anyone to appreciate you. Perhaps the microscopic bacteria there will do so. Haha. If you're lucky , maybe you will stumble upon me. More lucky , maybe I am the one singing on stage. Haha.
Saturday, August 30, 2008
May...the month of kinship~
1 May - End of May
Time travels very fast. Reminisce back , I had wasted an entirely half of the year contributing nothing to the community but significantly a great deal to my own good-enjoying the time I had to the fullest. And then , it is time. To go , to continue my life journey. To ascend myself to a higher step. Looking back , I have traversed for almost 18 years. Following the whisper of my heart , bringing myself to keep on walking along this road , misty conditions does not success in holding me back. I have carved my own road on my journey , and now , it is another new work. An entirely sophisticated task has thrown to me. Which way to go ? I've no idea. What to do next? And what I can do after it? Again , I dont know!
"You have no target in your life?" Someone asked me.
Deep thought of it, yap , there is..no...there ARE. However , it is not the subject for me to drag on here. After research after research , I've finally come to a conclusion - it's again another life bet. It's either I win this time or lost everything. I got to take the risk. Scholarships rejected me one by one , and I've known this for sure , what am I compare to others? I'm just one in a zillion. One tiny sub-ion compared to the universe. Even if I got the chance to grab a scholarship , I might reject them as well if it requires me to be bonded to them. Haha , am I arrogant? Or too stupid to do so? You may think so. But I have my different way of thinking , different perspective and different vision for my life. So , I've applied to TARCollege and now I'm there. Why ? Cheap lo. But not in the meaning of "cheap" , it's synonimous to inexpensive or rather affordable. Haha.
Towards the end of the month , it is the time for me to depart to Kuala Lumpur. Gosh , though it's not my first time flying to other places , I experience a plethora of emotions. A lot of things prepared and then the next day , it's going to be a long day.
In the airport , grandpa and grandma and and have come to bid me their farewell. I know I will meet them not long after this farewell because there will be a holidays during the coming June. Nothing happens until the time the plane has departed from the airport. Uphigh in the sky , I scan through the lower ground. Having my eyes set on Kuching's landscape. My last view of it and trying to photograph them into my mind. "I gonna miss here soon." Uncontrollable , tears started to roll down. Yes , it's true! Haha. It's the place I grow up , meet people and where my family lies. Nonetheless , an inseparatable bond has formed deep within me , it's just that I didnt realise it till that time.
And finally the plane set down to the Heart of Malaysia- Kuala Lumpur. Upon arrival to the condominium , my first impression is , Oh no! Why? That's for you to think.Haha. The first day we were busy buying things such as the furniture. After that we were having a small walk in KL for the next few days until my friends arrived. Then everything went on as usual. Nothing much to talk about.
Then here it came the orientation. It wasnt as fun as I thought.Listening to a lot of speeches and then the next day was the ice-breaking activites. Well , to be honest , I felt I should run away in midst of it. Haha.
Follows up , class begins. My lecturers are all nice. Just notice that my mind has really rusted totally. It's time to undergo studian movement again. Haha
Time travels very fast. Reminisce back , I had wasted an entirely half of the year contributing nothing to the community but significantly a great deal to my own good-enjoying the time I had to the fullest. And then , it is time. To go , to continue my life journey. To ascend myself to a higher step. Looking back , I have traversed for almost 18 years. Following the whisper of my heart , bringing myself to keep on walking along this road , misty conditions does not success in holding me back. I have carved my own road on my journey , and now , it is another new work. An entirely sophisticated task has thrown to me. Which way to go ? I've no idea. What to do next? And what I can do after it? Again , I dont know!
"You have no target in your life?" Someone asked me.
Deep thought of it, yap , there is..no...there ARE. However , it is not the subject for me to drag on here. After research after research , I've finally come to a conclusion - it's again another life bet. It's either I win this time or lost everything. I got to take the risk. Scholarships rejected me one by one , and I've known this for sure , what am I compare to others? I'm just one in a zillion. One tiny sub-ion compared to the universe. Even if I got the chance to grab a scholarship , I might reject them as well if it requires me to be bonded to them. Haha , am I arrogant? Or too stupid to do so? You may think so. But I have my different way of thinking , different perspective and different vision for my life. So , I've applied to TARCollege and now I'm there. Why ? Cheap lo. But not in the meaning of "cheap" , it's synonimous to inexpensive or rather affordable. Haha.
Towards the end of the month , it is the time for me to depart to Kuala Lumpur. Gosh , though it's not my first time flying to other places , I experience a plethora of emotions. A lot of things prepared and then the next day , it's going to be a long day.
In the airport , grandpa and grandma and and have come to bid me their farewell. I know I will meet them not long after this farewell because there will be a holidays during the coming June. Nothing happens until the time the plane has departed from the airport. Uphigh in the sky , I scan through the lower ground. Having my eyes set on Kuching's landscape. My last view of it and trying to photograph them into my mind. "I gonna miss here soon." Uncontrollable , tears started to roll down. Yes , it's true! Haha. It's the place I grow up , meet people and where my family lies. Nonetheless , an inseparatable bond has formed deep within me , it's just that I didnt realise it till that time.
And finally the plane set down to the Heart of Malaysia- Kuala Lumpur. Upon arrival to the condominium , my first impression is , Oh no! Why? That's for you to think.Haha. The first day we were busy buying things such as the furniture. After that we were having a small walk in KL for the next few days until my friends arrived. Then everything went on as usual. Nothing much to talk about.
Then here it came the orientation. It wasnt as fun as I thought.Listening to a lot of speeches and then the next day was the ice-breaking activites. Well , to be honest , I felt I should run away in midst of it. Haha.
Follows up , class begins. My lecturers are all nice. Just notice that my mind has really rusted totally. It's time to undergo studian movement again. Haha
Blowing off the Dust!
I've come so far and now , it is the time to scribble a few things to be remembered. Due to suffocating boredom , I turn back to my blog and am thinking to update it. Let me see , we have a lot of dust and spider web here. No worries , bi bi di ba bi di boo~~~~~ Perfectly done!
Okay , enough of gibberish. Now , the real thing. Keep you people update of my typical life as a student. Omigowd , last post was during March.
LATEST UPDATE!
Name : Lord Lexirphiw de Kui Cheng *duh , name will not change of course*
Age : 17 , ya..still 17 , mengapa? Birthday has not knocked on my door yet. Don't age me automatically la you guys.
Course : Cambridge A Levels - Biology , General Paper , Chemistry , Physics , Mathematics
Where? TARCollege. Then where I live? Hostel? No No No No....Wangsa Maju! So feel free to come visit me but I have to tell you beforehead , no comfortable sofa nor tv available. But there's tonnes of newspaper available here. No joke! Haha.
Well , I got a lot to say and it will be about.......a long essay then. Some of you might not like to read these long and tedious and mundane stories. But hey , this is my blog , I can do whatever I want. Haha. So , if it's jabbing at your eyes , just move your cursor to the top right corner , ya there , saw a X ? Click that. Ya...done....you're no longer trapped under words. Anyway , the update will be separated into a few section caegorized by months. I supposed.
Okay , enough of gibberish. Now , the real thing. Keep you people update of my typical life as a student. Omigowd , last post was during March.
LATEST UPDATE!
Name : Lord Lexirphiw de Kui Cheng *duh , name will not change of course*
Age : 17 , ya..still 17 , mengapa? Birthday has not knocked on my door yet. Don't age me automatically la you guys.
Course : Cambridge A Levels - Biology , General Paper , Chemistry , Physics , Mathematics
Where? TARCollege. Then where I live? Hostel? No No No No....Wangsa Maju! So feel free to come visit me but I have to tell you beforehead , no comfortable sofa nor tv available. But there's tonnes of newspaper available here. No joke! Haha.
Well , I got a lot to say and it will be about.......a long essay then. Some of you might not like to read these long and tedious and mundane stories. But hey , this is my blog , I can do whatever I want. Haha. So , if it's jabbing at your eyes , just move your cursor to the top right corner , ya there , saw a X ? Click that. Ya...done....you're no longer trapped under words. Anyway , the update will be separated into a few section caegorized by months. I supposed.
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